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Not There

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When I was going up the stairs, I saw a man who wasn't there.  He wasn't there again today.  I wish, I wish that he would just go away.

He wasn't there, so he didn't follow me.  He didn't follow me to my room that night.  Mommy, I'm scared.  He doesn't stand beside my bed, not staring as I sleep.  He stands there yet not, not existing, with his not-hat in his not-hands.  He speaks with not-words, decorating my nightmares with things not real.  His so-solid hands don't cover my mouth as I scream, struggling to escape these fearsome images that aren't in my head.  My heart beats faster as the real world slows.  Shadows of my room, so innocent in its childish decor, streak across my vision as he continues to not hold me down.  Laces and pink, toys and mirage-d innocence.  Mommy, Mommy!  What can I do?  It's getting dark, so, so dark.  Mommy, I'm scared, scared of the dark.  ...Mommy?

When I was going down the stairs, I saw the man who wasn't there.  He didn't follow me, quiet as my own shadow and he didn't take my hand to lead me down these stairs to hell.  Why won't he leave me alone?  Mommy, where are you? Mommy, why won't you protect me?  I look up to his not-face, something that would be normal and plain if he were there.  It is a face that you would forget the moment that you see it.  Is this why he isn't here?  Am I the only one who can remember the man who isn't here?  When we didn't reach the bottom of the stairs, he didn't pick me up and whisper to me, "It's all going to be gone soon."
  
He didn't take me back to the nightmares, each second becoming an endless eternity of hell.  He didn't stand in the background with his not-hat, not laughing at my helplessness.  But he was there at the end, as real as me.  This time mommy, he did  take my hand, and it was as real as yours.  He took my hand and lead me back up the stairs.  Don't be frightened when I don't wake up, because I'm no longer there.
Written March 19, 2011.

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starlight2infinity's avatar
this is Deep &  Dark Dear

I like the style you wrote this in but it does add to the complexity of the perceived meaning
which has a light but also a dark side in interpretation
one of what possibly should be and one of much darkness and fears...
the life line mommy or should be..

this actually kind puts me in mind of Slender Man en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Slender_…
the game for something so simple is quite spooky..as its the unknown that relentlessly doggs you

Excellent :clap::rose: